“What is the meaning of life with too much pain? Why would you still live when all around you has been experiences of rejection, unrecognition and a past that you can not correct? Why should you live when your loved one is no more with you?”
Allow me stray a bit with a story.
There was this disciple Judas. He was a keen, well educated man. Diligent in his works thus had an opportunity to sit with kings. But he did a mistake, he betrayed his master. His master knew it and sort in every way to have Judas back. but he seemed head-strong. Until the last minute as the master tried to call his attention to forsake what he had decided, instead of yielding, he walked out to fasten the process before he is convinced to change his objectives.
As the events unfolded, the master was captured and delivered into the arms of the enemy. Judas believed that his master will work his way out and be safe therefore he will benefit with free man. He was surprised to see his master yield to the enemy. Every torture his master received knocked Judas to his senses. Sooner than later, He realized he had betrayed an innocent man.
This did not settle well with Judas. He decided to return the gains to the payer. But the deal was already sealed. How terrible a mistake. He could not stand the guilt. He decided not to talk about it but instead take his life. Guilt took charge.
This may be what you may be going through right now. or it may be something your friend or loved one is going through. You can not stand your conscious How can you help?
If it is your friend, it is important to note that when such thoughts come, it is not wrong to talk about them. It is healthy to discuss how they feel. Seek to understand them. Don't rush to over a solution before knowing exactly what they are going through. This may be a sign of them seeking support, specifically emotional support. If you are a parent or a caregiver, talk with the children about their feelings without demeaning them. Observe their physical conditions. Some may have been going through self-harm, an attempt of punishing one's self due to guilt or shame associated with what they are going or gone through. This may be evident through body marks.
This state is the last symptom of depression which makes it important that the underlying cause be established and addressed through exercise and open discussion without any prejudice. Also know your friends well to a point of knowing any slight change in their normal operation. Buy them roses while they are alive. Take them out while they have sight. Call them while they can speak. Text them while they can respond. Reach out to them while they are there.
To you who is going through this hard time, you are not alone. He whose eyes is on the sparrow, watches over you. There is no tear you shed that does not hurt him. there is no pain you go through that he can not relate with. He fed people, healed their loved ones and supplied their needs but still when it was their time to stand for him, they chose a thief in place of him. He had no biological father. He came from a poor background. His lineage was of sinners. I think all this can tell you that he can relate with any rejection, any poverty and any past you may have had.
I introduce you to this man Jesus. He is always ready to listen to you. All you need is to trust His leading. It may not be easy to trust someone you have never seen but believe you me, I have seen His work. His presence I have felt. Yo may lack a shoulder to cry on but you will never lack a ground to kneel on. Give Him a chance today. He will transform your past, He will heal your hurt. There is no pain He can fail to identify with.